Wednesday

I call this post 'wednesday' because i cannot think of any title 4 what i am about 2 write. In fact, as I write this, I don't know what i will write, but I know that at the end, I would have written something, so just read on and be merry.

I'm tryna find myself in life...so to say. I'm tryna discover what i like and what i don't like, and so far i have discovered a few things...

• I love my lotion; I think it's my soul mate in lotions... it's from Olay
• I love my deodorant; it's from Secret (platinum)
• I found my soul mate in cookies too. It's Chessmen from Pepperidge Farm

*sorry, but there has been a break in transmission. Gotta go pee...*

*... 4 minutes later.... back from peeing.... mm wat a relief*

• I think I have found my soul mate in candy; I love the pink starburst
• I think I have also found my soul mate in beverages; I love the strawberry-guava flavor from Fuze
• I love Dannon's La Creme Yogurt - vanilla flavor
• I want a platinum band with a big (and affordable) rock on it
• I don't like gold jewelries
• I despise men who do not feel the need 2 give gifts (birthday, valentine, anniversary, etc)
• I despise unromantic (unthoughtful) men
• I hate lazy gifts (the type of gift you give without putting any thought in2 it. Like when u give a woman jewelry because 'women like jewelry'... bullshit!)
• I want a public proposal
• I just realised i also like verona cookies from pepperidge farm
• All of a sudden, I won't write with a pen until its ink is gel, so I guess the gel ink is my soul mate in pens?
• I'm not in2 anything dat has 2 do wit chocolate. I don't do chocolate candy, chocolate milk, chocolate cookies, chocolate wafers.... nope!
• If I must have chocolate, I'd rather have white chocolate.
• Nokia is my best cell phone company
• I love Sony electronics. I don't know anything bout electronics, but I like Sony cause my dad loves it.

Alright, I think I'm tired now. I'm gonna stop here and continue later.

Oh, by the way, I'm currently reading Chasing Destiny by my favorite author, Eric Jerome Dickey

Happy Mommy's Day

Happy mother's day, mom! I just wanna wish my one and only mother a happy mother's day (even though I know she won't read this...thank God cause some of the stuff I write... but anyways...)

I don't have much 2 say really, so I'm just gonna end this post here.

But I also wanna wish all the other women out there a happy mother's day. And 2 all the expectant mothers and women prayin and wishing 4 the miracle of childbirth, I pray God grants you all your heart desires.

I also wish myself some wonderful kids.... but not now o!!!!! God, lemme just make it clear 2 u that I am not sayin I want d kids now o! I mean, I want them when I get married...shey u get? I want 5 of them, and I don't mind having a set of twins... as long as they don't damage the uh... passageway...u know wat I mean, abi?

And 2 all the men, u know I won't leave u hanging! I wish u all a happy mother's day too! Yes, I'm wishin u a mother's day cause frankly speakin, some of u are more woman than I am sef. You whine 2 damn much!!

Good nite...

My Best Friend Is Engaged!!!

Yippie!!!!!!!! I cannot even begin 2 tell you how excited I am! My best friend is engaged... oh my God! We have been day dreaming about this day 4 soooooo long, and we have always started it with something like "Well, whoever my husband will be, I want him to...", and now, we know who her husband will b! Frank is a wonderful, handsome, intelligent, articulte, hard-working, you-really-gotta-see-him man. I couldn't have picked a betta person 4 Sola. I don't need 2 tell you that the picture you see is that of my one and only, Sola, and her fiance. Oh my God!... He's her fiance. Ah, this don serious o! But u know what's even better? I'm d maid of honor! She hasn't told me yet, but shoot, it has always been know that I would be the maid of honor. I have already told Frank 2 make sure that his best man is cute cause I will not b walkin down d aisle wit any..... u get my point sha.

So here's how it happened. Frank was celebratin his graduation (degree in Architechture...in case u need an architect sha...), and next thing, home boy takes the mic and his voice becomes all shaky and his eyes are misty. Next thing, he was on his knees askin Sola 2 marry him. I think Sola's mouth was open for a good 5 minutes... as I heard. Unfortunately, I missed d proposal cause I was late 2 the event, but no kwamps sha, I will definitely b there 4 the wedding.

When I came in and heard, I started crying hysterically. I dunno why the hell I was crying, but I was. I called Funmie and cried on d phone 2 her too, and I also called my mom and cried. I was so happy 4 Sola. I just couldn't help crying! I have known her since she was a teenager and now she is engaged. You know one wonderful thing about this too? Sola's inlaws (Frank's family) are the best! They love her, and they are glad 2 have her in their midst. Frank's sister and I have already become inlaws sef! You shoulda heard us talking; you'd think we've known each other 4 years...

Sola appointed me as one of her weddin planners... yay! I love this kinda stuff. So as the weddin planner sha, I suggested we save money on the dj and use my boom box 4 music, but she rejected my idea... can u believe that?! She said I am crazy and retarded. Is that a way 2 talk 2 ur weddin planner? She doesn't know I can just vex and resign my post ehn? Sola's calling me crazy is something I know would neva end; she has always told me so from the very beginning. I even went as far as offering 2 give her the music cd of her choice 2 play in the boom box while she's walkin in2 the aisle, but this yeye gal refused. I mean, kpata kpata, if the cd scratches while she's walking in, we'll bring it out, clean it, and continue. My last suggestion 2 her was that we play 'shake that booty' by elephant man. (Actually, the song is called 'jook gal'), but she refused again! I tire 4 this kin customer o.

Oh, you know what I'm really lookin 4ward 2? I'm lookin 4ward 2 writin her a love poem and readin it @ the reception. This has always been a dream 4 us...and the fact that it will be happening soon is making my heart go paulina-paulina. Don't ask me wat that means; I learnt it from my mom. A paulina-paulina heart is a happy heart.

Hmmmm.... I wonder wat my engagement wuld b like. It betta be as crazy as I am... that's all I can say 4 now.

anyways, here r a few tips 2 reduce cost @ the wedding... and even make some money

• guests will bring their own food
• wedding wuld b held outside, so a hall would not b needed
• my boom box wuld b used, so a dj wuld not b necessary
• guests wuld bring their own canopy (if they want) 2 protect them from d sun... or rain sef
• Each family wuld share a spoon, a fork, a knife and a cup.
• The tap in the bathroom wuld b workin properly, so no drinks have 2 b bought
• The cake will be bought at CoastCo, Sam's Club or any other wholesale store ...
• ALL the guests wuld b mandated 2 get up and spray money on the couple
• ALL guests wuld be screened 4 gifts b4 comin in2 (under) the uh.. canopy
• ALL guests wuld b mandated 2 bring several zip locks bags and several empty water bottles... in case they need 2 shit or pee
• instead of chairs, mats would b spread on the grass 4 guests... but they can bring their own chairs if they want
• in fact, in addition 2 the mandatory gifts from the guests, there wuld also be a $20 gate fee
• ALL the guests (including unborn babies) wuld b required 2 buy a 'sola-weds-frank' pin whether they like it or not.. and it will cost an additional $10
• ALL the guests are required 2 take pictures @ the wedding, but only by the wedding photographer...and they must pay 2 have it printed out (whether they want it or not) = $15

....well, that's all 4 now. I bet u too think I've lost my good sense, right?

Bye 4 now jare... it's 3:40am. I got back home @ about 2:30am. I gotta go 2 bed now; I have some serious dreamin 2 do in my sleep.

Nite-nite!

Random Gists

If anyone cares 2 know, then know it that I feel a lil better than I did yesterday. I'm not completely 'healed', but I am feeling better sha.

Now, on 2 my random gists...

1. I was on the bus on my way back from skool 2day, and as always, I made the mistake of smiling back to an elderly lady who was staring at me. Let me explain: the woman was staring at me and it was a bit... in fact, a lot uncomfortable, so I made eye contact and smiled back, and what did I get in return? This woman started telling me her life history. She told me about how she would be celebrating her wedding anniversary next month (on father's day) with her husband. The problem is, she could not remember if it was her 18 or 19th anniversary. And she asked me "which one is it?". How da hell am I supposed 2 know? And why is it that these yankee people always wanna talk? You know that kinda conversation where you're not really hearing wat they're even saying (or even caring 2 hear sef) and you're responding by saying things like...yea... mm hmm... oh my... really?... you don't say... oh... wow.....etc. But they still wanna keep on talkin.... haba!
2. I wore a blouse/shirt/top that says "Stupidity is not a crime, so you're free to go". Yes, I know what you are thinking.. 'this gal wears too many shirts that have things written on them.' Abi oh, I know I do. Anyway sha, the shirt kept on drawin unnecessary attention 2 my chest. In fact, I'm sure some people were just staring @ other things under the pretense of reading what was written on my shirt. Well, that one concern them sha.
3. I had a case of 'bad panty!' today. I had a reoccuring wedgie (is that d right spellin?). I no come understand the thing @ all. I wear only two types of underwears (panties): thongs & g-string bikinis, and today I was wearing a g-string bikini (which is just like a regular underwear wit very thin strings @ the side), so why was I having a wedgie? The bad part is that I was wearing a kinda tight skirt, so it made me self-conscious. Was every1 lookin @ my butt and saying "gee, she shoulda worn a thong"? The worse thing sef is the inability 2 pull the damn wedgie out. How was I supposed 2 pull it out when I was in the public? You neva know when one fine man dey look pesin... only 2 see me diggin my hands in my ass 2 pull out my underwear. How I go take xplain am now? Anyways sha...
4. I came back from skool and my head was seriously poundin, so I decided 2 take a walk outside again. I ended up walking up 2 Royal Farms and just sitting in the bus-stop booth. I sat there for over an hour and all I was doing was watching people come and go as I was thinking about my life. B4 I got 2 the booth, I was just walking (on the sidewalk o!) and some oyibo kid would just zoom past me on his bike. I didn't even hear him comin, and if I had by any chance decided 2 turn around or something, he woulda knocked me down. You see how devil dey use pesin?

Anyways, that's all I gat 4 now jare. I would make sure I come back later 4 some more gist... u know now!

Crossroads

You know we as human beings always meet several crossroads in life; we find ourselves in situations where we have 2 make decisions 2 take one road... and only one. Usually, there r things we want on both roads, but life won't b nice enough 2 let us have both, so we end up makin a choice. If we're lucky, the decision is pretty simple and it will not take us less than a second 2 decide, but if we are not lucky, we have 2 weigh and reweigh our options, and even after all the weighing, we still don't know if we made the right decision. We may have 2 go on 4 the rest of our lives wondering "what if I had picked the other road?"

The reason why i am talking about crossroads is because today was a terrible, terrible day 4 me. I wish I could go in2 details, but I would rather not. I don't know if I have eva been so confused in my life. I don't know what the hell I am doing; I don't know what I should be doing or what I should not even be considering. In my case, I seem 2 have 2 many roads 2 go, but the problem is that I can only go on one. No matter what decision I decide 2 make, I would still feel down @ the end of it.

I have been crying all day; my eyes are blood-shot, my head is throbbing and I am sleepy as hell. I only slept for about an hour between yesterday and today. I feel so exhausted and I really wish I could just disappear 2 an island and stay there by myself for a while i recuperate and get my head together...but no such luck 4 me.

It is @ times like this that I wish I had some supernatural power. I wish I could fly myself 2 Heaven or at least summon the presence of His Royal Highness, God 2 my house, so I could ask him some serious questions. Yea, I know God is everywhere, but I want him 2 be physically present, and I wanna look in2 His eyes and ask Him questions. Whatever He says I should do, I will. I honestly would not question His authority for one second.

There r so many things that I wish I could right now, but God knows best anyway. I'm goin 2 bed for now; I will be back tomorrow, I hope.

I'm really, really down, and I feel like if I get up from this chair, I will pass out.

I have an exam tomorrow and I have no idea what 2 expect. I have not even taken the time 2 look at my book. I don't use the f-word, but this is some fucked up shit.

Good nite, diary.

Nature Walk

Today, I decided 2 go 4 a walk, and it was refreshingly satisfying. It's been two years since we moved here, but b4 2day, I had never taken a walk around my area. Actually I had but my walk was headed east, and today it was west. I left my house @ 9:50pm (yeah, I know it's kinda late), and I took with me a long-strap purse hangin on my shoulder and across my body, $20, my change-purse, my cell phone, and of course, lip gloss. (You know I'm addicted 2 lip gloss). It was sooo beautiful outside. The weather was perfect, but unfortunately, I wasn't. You would not believe what I was wearing! I was wearing peach-colored flip flops, a purple skirt, a black t-shirt with white inscriptions that says "Naija 4 Life. 10% AFRICAN/70% 419/20% MOJO". Tell me you're not jealous of my shirt. But anyways... here's the link if you wanna purchase something 4 urself NaijaShirts

Like I was saying sha, the weather was really nice, and the moon was bright and out. I'm sure you're wondering why a sane girl would walk by herself at 10pm for no reason; well, first of all, i am not that sane. 2nd of all, I do not and cannot appreciate walking under the sun. Nope, that's not 4 me @ all. When the sun is down, you can get me 2 walk almost anywhere, but under the sun? Tufia kwa! And even though the sun is not really out in the morning, I cannot do morning either cause I am just not one to wake up early in the morning. Besides, I always go 2 bed late. I go 2 bed anywhere from 2am, so if you're expecting me 2 wake up @ 7am 2 admire the rising of the sun, you must have lost your damn mind. Video tape it and send it 2 me.

The walk was the type that I would have enjoyed better if I was doing it with someone. Where is Uju when I actually need her? When I came back, I called her and asked her if she would be interested in walking with me when her exams are over, and she said yea, so it's a deal! Maryland's newest and hottest walking partners have just been invented.

Last but not least, I finally finished my article... yay! It's called 'If You Must, Do It The Right Way'. Please take your time to read it and leave comments!

Nite-nite....

I'll be back 2morrow.

I Wouldn't Even Copy The Date From Her!!

So there I was oh... jejely taking my chem exam...and fully concentrating on it by the way, just 4 me 2 coincidentally look @ the woman sittin next 2 me, and guess wat she was doing? She had the impudence 2 be fighting tooth and nail just 2 cover her work. Yes, I know you think I was giraffin, but trust me, I wasn't. This woman got a 53% on the first exam...which was the easiest o! And I'm not tryna toot my own horns, but I aced that test...and the rest of them (xcept the one I got a 'B' on sha), so you can imagine my annoyance 2 find her tryna cover her stuff like that....like I would even copy the date. I don't even trust the date on her paper sef...not 2 talk of gettin d answers. I would rather guess all the answers that copy one single thing from her; at least, that way, I would know my failure is as a result of my ignorance. Anyway, I just kuku turned my head 2 the other side of the room b4 it will turn 2 something else. Can you believe that when I was done and ready 2 turn it in, this woman was giraffin my stuff? And she wasn't even doin it with style o. I didn't care if she copied mine of course.... it's not like we had the same question papers. Her copying my stuff would b 2 her own detriment, so I figured she could copy all she wanted. Which one concern yansh and toothbrush?

Anyway, Uju is comin 2 my house 2nite 2 do God-knows-what. I don't even have a say in wheather she comes or not... ain't that something? One would think she pays rent here, but trust me, she doesn't oh. She just comes and does what she wants and eats what she wants, and at the end, she'll even throw in a lil insult 2 me. Yeap, she's very generous.

Anyways, lemme go 4 today! We go talk 2morrow.

Lost In A Trance

I was sent a song called "Feels Right", and it was sang by a certain Lemar. I have been listening to the song for hours and I am in love with it... believe me, I shit you not. The lyrics of his poem are killin! If a man could dedicate a song like this 2 u, I guarantee you won't let him go. It's a wonderful song, believe me, and guess what? He's Nigerian! He's based in the U.K. He's good, girls! My eyes are closed and I am lost in a trance... a very beautiful trance 4 that matter.

I wrote a new poem today called "Unfathomable", but I do not intend to post it online; it's a private poem, but I really like it anyway.

I have a chem exam tomorrow which I have not studied for. You know why? It's the end of the semester and I am too lazy... and it's also an open book exam. Why would I study? Psshhhtt pls! It's not gonna happen... abi them no born me well.

Ooooh, I'm typing this thing with my eyes closed cause the song is running through my blood vessels. Gosh, I'm in love.

The Weekend Is Ova Already

Nawa O.... it seems like I just started the weekend and now it's over already.... and what did I accomplish?

• Well, for starters, I talked 2 my bestfriend in Naija....yay!!!!!!!! I cannot begin 2 tell you how happy I was (and still am) to talk to Uchenna. She's da bomb! That girl is soooo... I can't even tell you. Words are not enough for me 2 tell you. It's quite disappointing that I did not write about her in my article about girl friends; I just decided to write about only those in U.S.... but I really wish I had included her name. Anyways, she's close 2 my heart. I cannot wait 2 see her again...it's been too damn long.
• I started another article called "If You Must, Do It The Right Way". Do you have any idea what it might be about? I think it's one of those articles where I joke about serious issues, which is why I personally like it. You should check it out when I'm done writing it. Of course, I will let you know.
• I watched two naija movies online. Did you know you could watch Naija movies online for free? Yes oh, courtesy of Online Nigeria. I was (and still am, of course) impressed! Those movies really helped keep me busy. Thank God 4 that miracle.

I'm starting to accept the fact that I might not work this summer, but I just wish and pray and Hope to God that I get a lap top. It will really make my summer! I'm a weird creature, you know. A lot of people can't wait for summer to get here, so they can be all skimpy and hot, but me on the other hand, I hate...or rather dislike summer. There is nothing refreshing about constantly being warm. I mean, hot damn! Fall is really my best season, but if I had 2 pick one between the harsh winter and the burning summer, you better believe I'd rather have winter.

It's refreshing to have warm weather; keyword being 'warm', but summer is just straight up wicked! It makes me very uncomfortable as I do not ever wish to break a sweat unless I am deliberately trying 2. During the summer, breathing alone woulf make you break a sweat. Although I don't sweat a lot, I don't even wanna be moist. And taking showers every 30 minutes starts taking a toll on one's skin after a while.

If you care to know, the itching on my breast and nipple has stopped. I don't know what that was all about, but I am glad it's over with now.

Sorry I did not come back yesterday to continue my entry; I was carried away by the Naija movie I was watching. So how do you like my picture? I figured it's time for people to see what this mysterious Vera looks like.... abi what do you think?

Nite....

I See You!!

Forget the fact that my eye is closed, I can see you!

Ain't That Something?

This picture is just too funny. I guess the poor woman has upgraded too, abi? Well, I've got more 2 write but 4 now, I wanna go clean up my bathroom... it's saturday, you know? I'll be back 2 continue this post. 

This Vera Sef...

You know sometimes we as humans (I'm talkin bout myself by the way) whine and whine and bug God 2 do something 4 us, but when He finally does, we become afraid and start wondering why it is so good. Does something being so good necessarily mean it cannot be true? I mean, it is said that "if it is too good to be true, it probably is", but is it really true? Is it possible that something that is too good 2 be true is only too good 2 be true because it is a gift from our Father above?

God knows what I have been beggin Him 4....well, He knows allll the things I have been beggin Him for, and now, I think He has granted me one of them, but why am I so scared then? Why am I so afraid that this gift is too good? Why do I feel like it is too good of a gift 2 be given by God? After all, all good things come from God, right? Nawa o, this Vera sef!

Oh God, I know You know what I am talking about, so just keep doing what You do best (Blessing me), and I will do what I should do best (accepting Your Blessings with open hands). Now, I am not being ungrateful oh, but You know what else I want.... and I want it fasttttttt - Thanks Lord.

No1 should even think of asking me what Blessing God has given me cause I ain't tellin!

Now, good nite.

Honestly, I'm Not Bitter...

B4 you swear up and down that I am bitter, I just wanna say that I am not! But what the hell is with these soap opera stars? Why must they kiss like that? Kissing scenes in soap operas just make me go arrrggghhhhh!!! The sound of the kiss.... the looks on their faces... the moans... the groans... shut the hell up!!! I don't know why, they just make me sick to my stomach. I don't wanna see it; I don't wanna hear it... nothing! I bet you're wondering why I watch soap operas right? Well, I don't. My mother does. It seems like she won't feel complete without watching Days Of Our Lives and Passions on NBC Daytime. Days Of Our Lives seems 2 have a kissing scene every 5 minutes; what the hell is that? Somebody betta warn them b4 I charge o!

My gum hurts and I don't know why. I hope I'm not growin another tooth because I am too old 4 this. I know I am damn too old 4 this. Besides, I coulda sworn I already have a complete set. I am in no mood to keep sending my tongue on errands to find out what lies on my gum. The yeye tongue sef doesn't even know.

Mehn, I wish my four year old nephew was here; I woulda made him stand on my back. I love it when he does so; it is soooooo nice! Sometimes I make him count the hair on my head. Poor boy. It feeels so good when someone is pulling my hair (especially the hair in the middle of my big head) gently. Of course he can't actually count all my hair (who can?), but somehow, he always tells me I have 30... or is it 20? No, I think it's 30 hairs. Funny kid, he is. I also love when someone is putting hair creme on my scalp or just rubbing my scalp gently. God, I love it! Well, that would be part of my husband's job description - whenever I marry him, of course.

I still haven't fully recovered from the lack of sleep I had yesterday, so I'm gonna get up and get my ass right back to bed. I love sleep, don't I? I'm gonna go make a long distance call, then I'm gonna go 2 bed. I need 2 call my cousin, Nachi in Nigeria. He has been flashin' me all day. I bet you he will have no reason 2 be flashin me. He's probably doin it just 2 say hi.

What can I do? He just can't get enough of me, but then again, who can? I mean, look @ God; the man can't stop watching over me. I can't say I can blame him though. He's proud of His job well done.

But enuff 'bout me and God's admiration of me. Wat's up wit u? That was a rhetorical question, of course.

Bye....

What A Day....

Can you believe that I stayed awake from yesterday till today? I mean, I did not sleep between monday and tuesday...isn't that crazy? Actually, I finally slept @ about 7:40am, but I had to be up @ 8:00am, so would you really consider that as sleeping? Don't even ask me why I was up so late....or early...

Remember how I told you my right breast was itching? It got worse! Now, even the nipple is itching too. I'm telling you, as I stood in front of the bathroom mirror today, I started looking at my toothbrush differently. I just wanted to grab that thing and set it to kill the itch on my nipple. But I hadn't taken a shower, and I didn't wanna rub germs on my toothbrush and then use it in my mouth. Besides, the itch might be transferred to my teeth...... if possible (but I doubt it).

Thank goodness Ms. Flow is leaving; I'm sure she won't last past tomorrow....or today sef. She'll be back sometime next month. She flies in through the "menses airway".

I just cooked some stew, and I guess I should also cook some rice but it's kinda late, and I really don't feel like it. Well, some people sent me emails about my latest article, so I guess I could put some rice on fire and come back to continue this entry and start my emails...

*Vera gets up and walks into the kitchen*... (why do I refer 2 myself as a third person? I have some serious issues)

Can you believe Uju just came 2 my house and dumped her notes? She didn't copy down her notes in class, and now, I have to help her do it...even though I don't have the same class with her. Hell, we don't even attend the same skool. But anyways...

I guess I'm done 4 today. I'll be sure to update you tomorrow.... or the day after.

Gud Nite.

Wedding Bells

No, no, no! Not mine, so stop getting excited. Well, at least not mine to my knowledge anyway.

Yesterday, I went 4 a wedding with my mom & grandma (though I was plannin on not going). We attended Igbo church (yes, they have that here), and though I usually do not like going (because those women gossip 2 damn much!), yesterday I decided to go. I had no idea there would be a wedding during the service. I didn't really enjoy it cause all it did was make the service longer (as if 2.5 hours isn't already too long for a Catholic Church!). I decided to go 4 the reception too (thereby missin a new episode of Charmed...darn!), and I guess it was okay. I didn't like the DJ cause I thought he stunk like a skunk, but anyways.... if one more person tells me about how ripe I am for marriage ehn....! there will be hell 2 pay!

Here's one little (or maybe not so little) problem I have been having: my right breast has been itching the hell outta me! Not the nipple oh, just the other part. It's the type of itch you just gotta scratch, but then I don't wanna open my skin, and i'm kinda starting 2 get tired of just slapping it 2 stop the itch. Besides, it hurts and it doesn't even relieve the itch. All it does is make it sting and make me wanna scratch it even more. What could this mean? When I was little (and didn't have breast), my cousin used to say it meant it needed 2 be sucked, but somehow I think she was just deceiving me. I doubt it will be a good idea if I ask some1 to do that... besides.... well, never mind that issue 4 now.

You know, sometimes, you think you know someone, and then you realize that you really don't. I don't know how married couples do it, 4 real. How do they deal with each other's short comings? I mean, what happens when one partner realizes the other one is a bonafied liar?

Have I ever told you of how much I dream of becoming someone's wife? I'm not tryna toot my own horns, but I know I will make a damn good wife. If only you knew what plans I got, I bet you'll be running to propose 2 me right about now. I believe I will be a good wife, which is why i cannot settle 4 less. I refuse 2 settle down with someone who cannot meet me halfway. I know you might be wondering why I am talking about this, but never mind that, we'll get back to it later.

Do you know that I have a chem assignment due tomorrow and I have not even started it? Go figure.

One last thing b4 I sign out 4 the day, I wanna make a confession. I'm very confused at this point about where my life is headed. I got so confused today that I started crying.... although that might have been my hormones (since I am currently shedding blood).

Speaking of shedding blood, yesterday (my 2nd day) was my heaviest (always is), so being @ a wedding was really not in my best interest. There's nothing fun about constantly wondering if the pad may have shifted while you were dancing and bending down. Of course, I coulda sat my ass down, but I couldn't help it. In spite of how much the DJ sucked, he still had some nice music. And 2 make it worse, the bathroom sucked! Ewww! I couldn't go in there 2 expose the beauty between my legs in the name of changing a pad... no way! That's how people catch thangz, u know?

Alright, I think I have said too much. I may be a little drunk... on caffeine. I drank a can of mountain dew 2day.... sshhh, don't tell any1.

G'Nite.

*Vera slowly exits and signs out of d blogger network)*

Flowin' Into Mood Swings...

Ok, it's that time of the month again. Why do I have to share such intimate details of my life, you ask? Frankly speaking, I have no clue. I just know that when I type here, I feel the need to write all that is on my mind - well, almost all. My mood swings haven't kicked in yet (Thank God), but I'm expecting a full dose of it tomorrow, which is why I have decided not to attend a wedding tomorrow. I don't wanna sit there with my face looking like shit plastered on the wall. I mean, what if the camera man decides to take my picture? Hmmm, that won't be good at all. Anyway, Miss Flo' just came today, so I expect her to be here till wednesday at most.

About Silent Hill..... Aaaarrrrgggghhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!! Ok, the movie started out well. It had just the right amount of suspense, thrill and horror, but towards the end (you know, the part that is supposed to give everyone closure!), everything became twisted. I don't wanna say what happened in case you haven't seen it and wish to, but I will say is that I just didn't (and still don't) get it. When the movie was over, Uju stood in front of the screen waiting for another scene, even though they had started listing the names of the cast members. That movie better have a second part coming up, cause yesterday I was pissed as shit. It's bad enough that I don't understand the movie, now the end of it definitely did not justify the means. I need to stick to comedies, 4 real.

Halleluia! I just finished an article. It's called When The Pendulum Swings, and you should definitely check it out. And don't forget to leave comments; I love the comments. The comments are what keep me writing really, so please, don't forget me. Thanks in advance.

I am soooooo bored, you have no idea. I didn't even know it was possible to be as bored as I am now...especially when Ms. Flo is here. Usually, I woulda been curled up on the couch crying about something I don't even know. Well, I guess that's not very fun either. Hmmmm, this is serious.

Friday Night

So..... wat's up with your friday nite? Doing anything nice? Well, I have a movie date with Uju and her sister in-law. The movie starts at 10:45pm; it's 10:26pm and they are not here yet. Of course, I could always walk to Uju's house since it's just about 5 minutes of walk, but I'm too engrossed in the music I'm listening to. I love music. I love dancing. It's soo damn therapeutic. Well, don't feel too bad that you're not going; I didn't make my mind up until about 30 minutes ago. We're going 2 watch Silent Hill, and I know for sure that it will be good. It has been getting good reviews, so I'm definitely looking forward to seeing it. Thank God Uju would be there... I might get scared, you know.

Anyway, there isn't really much for me to write on here, so I'm gonna go off b4 Uju hurts me. She just called to say she's downstairs. Ok, bye!

So It Has Come 2 This....???

You know, I've always been convinced that I am one of the lucky people who don't have meddling parents. But that was until today when my father called me to tell me that he has given my number to the son of his friend. Apparently, he and his friend (whom I don't know by the way!) had discussed and decided that I should meet with the man's son who is in millitary, and also here in the States. By the way, I don't even know what state this guy I'm supposed to meet lives in. And what can't the guy even find a woman for himself? Well, maybe he's just as innocent as I am; maybe his father just told him "Look, take this number; it belongs to the daughter of my friend, and her father and I have decided that you should call her. She lives in the States too."

Ain't that something?!

Uju's mother always calls her from Nigeria to talk about marriage and the sort, and the poor girl is tired of hearing it already. My mother has never spoken to me about marriage, though I'm a year older than Uju. I mean, my mom makes comments such as "is that what you'll do when you get married?" or "we'll see what your husband thinks about it", but she has never tried to hook me up before! I cannot believe my father is hooking me up; I cannot believe it!! Has it come to this now? Have I become such an old maid that I have 2 be hooked up by my father? This is just 2 funny 2 me. I still consider myself a baby o! I still want daddy's affection. I wanna rub my daddy's big tummy and I wanna eat the last meat in his soup, dammit!

Ok, whoosah.... now that I have let out my frustration, shey you understand where I'm comin from? You understand why I feel the way I do, right? I mean, do you not also want the last meat in your daddy's soup? Don't u want his stockfish? His dry fish (okporoko)? I know I do! And hooking me up with some guy who I don't know or care to know is getting in the way of me and that meat.

I wonder if he (the guy I'm supposed to meet) is feelin the way that I am. I wonder if he's thinking "what the hell?" like I am too. Hopefully, he is anyway. Anyway, we'll see how this turns out. Of course, you know I will update you.

See Ya.....!

Mystified

Have you ever felt like so many things are going on in your life, and at the same time nothing is going on? That's exactly how I feel. I feel like there are so many things going on, and I can barely catch my breath to watch it all, yet I feel like nothing is going on. I feel like I'm just watching my go by; I feel like I'm just standing at the corner and watching my boring yet buzy life. How is that possible?

You know, one thing I know for sure is that God needs to step up really, really quick before I lose my Blessed mind. I know that He needs to speed things up before I bore myself to the point of no return. If only awards were given for being mentally active right? Trust me, it sucks to be so mentally active and so full of wonderful ideas, and yet be unable to express them. All you can really do is dream them. Isn't that the worst kind of prison?

Looking around the world, I know that there are people with much bigger problems than myself. I know some people wonder if they will make it into the next minute due to lack of food, water, etc. I know some families are so broken up that the pieces cannot even be found. I know that some people have left their homes this morning and not return, but I left my house and I'm home. I'm not worried about what I will eat or drink in the next minute, hour, day, week, and even month. Perhaps after a month, I might need to restock.... you get the point. And I know where all the pieces of my family are ... well, I least I know of the important ones.

I miss my father sooooooooooooooooooo much, and I have been dreaming about him consecutively every night. I love that man so damn much. Words alone cannot express the magnitude of my love for him. And my mother? Don't get me started on that woman. She's my pillar of strength. I couldn't have possibly asked for a better woman for a mother. My mother would go hungry for a month before I lack food for a day. She's the wind beneath my wings. I appreciate her so much; my only regret is that I am currently unable to tell her exactly how much she means to me. She's my queen. She took so much because of me. She goes without just to see me happy. Does it really get better?

I changed my mind. I don't have much of a problem. I mean, I do, but my Blessings are a lot more. And truthfully speaking, I know it's only a phase. I know it's only a matter of time before it will become part of my history. I have faith in God to do right by me; he always has anyway, so I have no reason to doubt him now. You know the meaning of Vera? It's a Russian name and it means 'Faith', so you see it's kinda impossible for me not 3 trust God.

Been A While.....

It seems like 4eva since I updated you, and I'm sorry about that. Don't blame me; it's not easy starting the computer and sitting here to type stuff up. Sometimes I'm just not in the mood. More like my spirit is willing, but my body is so darn weak.

Yesterday, I was supposed 2 go 2 skool, and even though I woke up early and got dressed on time, I just couldn't bring myself to go to skool. I just wasn't feelin' it. You know how that is, right?

Remember how I said I was obsessed with shoes? Well, I don't think I am as obsessed as I used to be; however, I have found a new obsession. I have become a junkie.... a parfume junkie! Right now, I am currently obsessing over two perfumes, but I would not mention their names anyway....although it will be good to do so just in case someone decides to be generous enough to buy them for me... although I doubt it.

Anyways, I'll be back 2 tell u more later.