It's Thanksgiving Day in America. As tradition demands, most families - American and otherwise - have spiced and stuffed their turkeys, waiting to bake them as soon as the day breaks. At least, after today, turkeys will stop running around being so nervous - until next year, that is. But me, I'm not looking forward to the turkey, in spite of the 17-pound one that is currently sitting on the kitchen island. I don't eat turkey. However, this year, I'm especially taking part in the Thanksgiving celebration.
At the beginning of each year, you start off with new resolutions and a renewed sense of hope, hoping that this year will be the year. I did the same thing, too. But from January to October, things just dragged, and most things stayed the same or got worse. According to Folake Taylor in her book, "The Only Way Is Up," (and I'm paraphrasing, I believe), stagnancy in a human being is regression. On that note, I regressed.
Then God looked my way, winked, and said, "Alright child, you've had your hand up for a while. Here's some bread for you." Life got better in many ways, some more quantifiable than others. I don't know what to call it when you wake up each morning suddenly believing (not just thinking) that you will make it, that God is with you, and that things can only get better. It's like you've been injected with faith on steroids. That's how my November has been.
And I was confused about someone, telling myself, in spite of all the spiritual and mental nudges I got, that maybe this person wasn't so bad after all. And then, God said *insert Ebonics* "Chile! I'ma give you one more sign, and after that, you on your own, gurl!" To which I said (also in Ebonics), "Oh! So that's what you was tryna tell me!" I think God said, "Duh!"
My confidence, creativity, go-getter spirit, and optimism have been turned back on. I never lost my creativity per se, but I lost my go-getter spirit. Some people did not even know that I had it. I was so down last month, not knowing where to go next, or if to even go. As always, I did a terrific job of masking it. But God, the All-Knowing, Omni-Present One, He saw right through me.
For my life, my parents' lives, my friends' lives, my present, my past, and my future, I thank God for God.
Happy Thanksgiving Day.